4 more days

OMG!  Just 4 more days left of classes for the seniors!!!  I can't even articulate into words how freaking excited I am that in less than a week I'll have part of this year behind me.  I still have to teach my juniors until the end of June, but those are the good kids.  After Friday no more shady seniors trying to weasel out of assignments or phony attempts of seniors trying to act like they care.  

When I was in high school I remember thinking to myself that senioritis is a self-imposed illness. It's like if someone were to give themselves swine flu just to say they had it and to say that they barely escaped it and thus are "bad ass."  I give my kids 4 days to write a 1 1/2 page paper on the Cold War and more than half can't do it.

Ugh. I'm not going to vent about them.  My time with them is thisclose to being a distant memory.  

Despite the difficult beginning and the rocky middle, the end of this school year is wrapping up pretty smoothly.  Am I finally getting the hang of this?  I can't wait to begin teaching 9th grade.  This next year to two years will be an incredibly time in my life.  Major decisions need to be made.  Where will I live next?  Where will I teach next?  What will I be next?  

Teaching has taught me a lot about myself.  I'm a teacher and then some.  I'm still trying to figure out what kind of teacher I will be and what else is in me.  I love to watch documentaries and movies about inspirational teachers and I can't see myself like that.  Being a teacher is so so so hard.  I'm burnt out and I'm not even done yet.  I can't sympathize with the lazy.  And at the end of the day I just want to be home with my dog.  

I get excited at the thought of coming into my own and it's excited to think that I still have time to figure life out.  

As of right now Stella is growing a foot every day it seems.  I'm going home in January.  And I still need to read Hamlet before tomorrow (probably won't happen).  

Omg. I'm so  excited. Just 4 more days.